The sky is gray.
It looks like a completely new city.
I'm lost.
As a child,
I never cried in front of my mother.
I promised myself I would never cry.
After my father left,
my mother cried the tears that should have been mine as well.
When she robbed me of my sadness, I felt something for the first time.
I didn't know the thing I was never given.
The comfortable world of being alone.
But...
Hana!
You give my world color.
I'm glad, Hana.
I've been looking for you.
I got a call from your mom saying that you disappeared.
Come on. Let's go home.
Hana?
I suddenly became so embarrassed.
For trying to act tough.
Why...?
You once offered me a safe space,
so why are you abandoning me now?
Ecchan.
Ecchan's hair is so silky.
It even looks good parted to the side.
Hanabi, you're awake?
Good morning.
What's wrong?
Good morning...
Ecchan.
Episode Five
I want to treasure the most What is most precious
But even something so simple Is the one thing I can't do
"If destiny is real
Then you are the person I'm destined to be with"
Those are the words I can't say Because I'm scared it will destroy what we have
Even when you're near You feel so far
This feeling that comes and goes
"Give up" "Don't give up"
The petals I pick are never ending
The treasure box remains locked
Embracing the sparkling feelings
Hiding the faintly colored fragments in my sighs
If our eyes meet Please, don't look away
See through this lie I've locked away
I don't know how much more I can take
So please don't say anything yet
It hurts
I love you so much it's scary
You know...
I really already know everything.
I'm not that stupid.
But I know that if I told her, there's no way she'd understand.
She'd probably actually hate--
Seriously?
Did I not want her to hate me?
I mean, there was a time
when I really didn't know.
How could you say that?
How could you say that about Ms. Akane?
You really don't know?
You're such a kid, Mugi.
See?
But he's so old.
I bet that's some college professor.
I cried myself to sleep that night.
But by the next day...
Sorry I'm late.
Ms. Akane showed up to tutor me as usual.
You want some cake?
I bought one on the way here.
Oh, she's wearing the same clothes as yesterday.
I bet she's doing that because she looks cute at that angle.
I bet...
She can't live without a man.
When I thought of her like that,
then Akane suddenly became this fragile, sympathetic girl to me.
Mugi.
You've got some icing on your face.
I'm going to be sick.
That's the smell of the motel's shampoo, isn't it?
Wanna lick?
No, that's okay.
Okay, then.
This goddamn woman.
But since then, I...
I dropped my pencil.
Did she calculate this?
Sorry.
Does she calculate everything?
I just fell further into her trap.
So that's what you like?
Now that I think about it, maybe that was her being jealous.
I know if it were her...
What? No way.
Please, just die. Right, you're terrible.
But I don't hate how honest she is.
Today is Saturday.
I've got nothing to do.
But...
Why?
I did not think you'd come.
Why not?
Please, do something about my adolescence.
I'd hate to waste time.
You just wanna go to a motel?
Oh, I mean, I didn't--
That's exactly why you called me, right?
It's fine.
I'm partly responsible, after all.
You don't have to do this out of a sense of responsibility or anything.
You want to do it, right?
Well, yeah...
You know...
Yeah?
Did you know we've never done it when you've wanted to before?
So this makes us even.
She went home without spending the night.
Hey, Mugi.
Hey.
Morning.
It's so hot.
Summer vacation is coming up soon.
You know we're in advanced courses, right?
Apparently, we're going to get a ton of homework.
At times, Mugi and I were incredibly close.
It's not just my imagination.
But at other times,
we're practically strangers.
We spent less time alone together.
We stopped talking about things that might get too real.
I ended up not telling him about Brother confessing his feelings.
We each got a sense that the other had more things they were hiding.
We were even trying to avoid the trouble of asking.
I wonder why?
Am I fine with Ecchan at this point?
Yeah. If it's just about filling in the loneliness,
I don't need Mugi anymore.
I don't need him anymore.
Mugi, you slept with someone else, didn't you?
You did too, didn't you?
I did.
I can tell.
Because...
What?
It's fine. We probably did it for the same reason.
Because it's started to feel really good.
Me too.
Hey.
Why?
I hate pain, but...
You know...
It feels so good.
Me too.
Mugi and I are so similar.
Like how terrible we are.
Time passes equally for everyone.
It's up to you whether your life is boring or not.
The sound of the bell.
The bell dictates timetables, when you arrive at school, when you leave school,
after school, going to bed early, waking up early.
Time needs to be divided to be visible.
This place dictates so much.
Excuse me.
The number one thing I desire.
Something that will break the mundane routine of everyday life.
Freedom.
Scum's Wish
It's been a while since you last came over.
It has.
What are you getting all embarrassed about, stupid?
I'm not stupid.
Hanabi?
Yeah, that's it.
You do that a lot.
Those eyes.
She's frightened and scared, but she still looks directly at me.
She's pretty.
It makes me want to ruin her.
I know that's where my mind goes because I'm a man.
It makes me feel disgusted and sad.
Mugi, let's do it.
Even I have things I want to keep closed off from the world.
Oh, I haven't given you my answer yet, have I?
No.
Don't make me say it. What a bore.
So...
-To be honest... -Yes?
We still don't know each other that well.
Today was a bust too.
So, why don't we...?
Another boring day.
Mr. Kanai, are you free tonight?
Boring, boring, boring...
How unfortunate.
It's like, could you try harder, you know?
You mean your students?
No...
I drank too much because I was angry.
Oh, crap.
I didn't mean to drink this much.
It's his fault for being so boring.
Are you really not going to drink?
No.
I'm not good with alcohol at all.
Bar Chirinuru
I knew from the start that he was boring.
But he was even more boring than I thought.
I really hate boring people.
Please, wait.
You haven't given me an answer.
Answer...?
I mean...
Would you...?
Are you okay?
I'm glad you're okay. Hana.
I'm so sorry. I just said it out of habit.
Why does this have to happen now?
I take it all back.
This boring day
might have just gotten interesting.
I'm feeling it now.
A fading kiss mark.
Mugi?
Stop it, idiot.
What?
Is there someone you don't want seeing my kisses on you?
No.
But in that case...
Go all the way today.
Hold on.
That's breaking our rules.
There she goes. That hysteric, fickle, recklessly egocentric remark.
I really can't deal with it.
Seriously.
So it's just a motel after all?
No.
Let's see.
Oh, yeah.
I agreed to go look at the skyline, because I felt sorry for him.
This is my own little special spot...
And of course we just ended up here.
Are you sure about this?
He's asking permission?
He's asking me at this point?
Honestly, what the hell do you see in him, Hana?
Ms. Yasuraoka from class C is very cute, isn't she?
You two seem very close.
Hana... Ms. Yasuraoka grew up very near my home.
We are like brother and sister.
If it seemed like I gave her special treatment...
Oh, it's not that.
Maybe I'm being weird,
feeling jealous about her like this...
Too easy.
It hurts. It hurts! I can't!
What?
Your body's cold now.
I don't want you catching a cold.
Why can't we do it?
What do you mean "why"?
It's because you don't really love me, right?
Then I do love you.
What do you mean "then"?
You wanna do it that bad?
There's something wrong with you.
Hey.
Do you wanna actually start dating for real?
I'm going home.
Wait.
What?
Are you still a virgin?
I'm really leaving.
I'm alone.
I hate being alone.
Being alone
makes me feel empty.
I want to sleep with someone.
Honestly...
How weak have I become?
Last night...
I had sex with Mr. Kanai.
Let's escape from the solar system
And cross it in parallel lines
Stretching out
In parallel lines
Like our shadows
You can blame the times we live in For your lack of courage
Searching for a place Where there is a wish not going anywhere
I want to be the words
That pour out of your lips
Let's escape from the solar system
And cross it in parallel lines
Taking along impossible wishes
And our timid voices
Once we're drained of emotion
I can start to imagine
I will reach out to our shadows
Ah, parallel lines